Friday, August 10, 2012

Motherhood..

On August 30, 2011 I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant. I was scared, happy, and surprised! I have never felt do many emotions all at once. I called my mom of course and she had "mothers intuition" and calmed me down then asked if I had gone to planned parenthood. And that it could be wrong since the day before I took the first test and is said not pregnant. So I went in the next day and of course I was by then I already excepted it and was happy. I told the father and he wasn't happy and wanted me to get rid of it. I said no and it was my choice. So I left him alone about it do he could live his life. I mean I was 22 and he was going to be turning 23 he just got a good job and this was inconvenient. I understood so no harm done I didn't care. So I moved back to California with my family for support. My due date was april 20, 2012 I ended up have a boy on may 6, 2012 at 12:31pm he was 7lbs 8 oz and he was gorgeous! I named him Gavin Randall McNamara-*bleep* ( I'm not going to identify the father with the last name ) anyways I love him. Today he is 3 months old and is amazing! Everything had been a crazy roller coaster with emotions. His father and I still talk but he still hadn't shown any interest. I havnt asked for child support but if I continue not too my benefits will be cut. :( California kinda sucks like that. And they might just do it anyways like they did to my brother. Anyways my little man is gorgeous!